inbetweens

just so you know...

2009-01-10T21:41:00.000-08:00

i'm here now. sorry blogger, wordpress seems more fun.

And so I came back.

2007-09-24T05:34:00.000-07:00

Have not been to Adelaide for a bit. And its nice to be back in a way and good to see kiddo again. Although, we have our dog and cat do we've been pigging out.
Prove:
First night, we did a pan-fried red snapper fillet with asparagus, olives and sundried tomatoes

Accompanied by mixed salad with homemade guacamole dressing, crutons and pancettas:

Then Kid did this chicken dish she picked up from work:

Involtini di pollo (Stuffed chicken breast in a very creamy sauce)

Then I did Roast chicken with the lot:

Ahhh, so to you - if i look a little heavier when i come home. Blame kiddo =)

And that's the way this wheel keeps working now...

2007-06-23T09:32:00.000-07:00

I have been in reflection for a bit.

Reflecting on goals...no more dreams...they're called goals now. And I was thinking about all these things that I was going to write them all down somewhere, a scrap or anywhere but being a little too caught up with work, I forgot what I was thinking about. I lost that moment.
As happens, sometimes a moment settles and hovers and remains for much more than a moment. And sound stops and movement stops for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment is gone...and you are left trying to recall the spark of that moment.

I couldn't.

I regretted not living that moment, and thought of an old moment which reminded me of what I heard on tv:

"Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger, like when we let down a friend. Some of us escape the pangs of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past. and sometimes we bury our regret by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did, but for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say, that would have saved someone we care about, especially when we can see the dark storm that's headed their way."

Which led on to another moment that Ida Scott Taylor once wrote:

"Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."

And then I recalled what my reflectivemoment was about...

It was about living. =)

M.E. 101

2007-06-21T19:21:00.000-07:00

"I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions."

-Augusten Burroughs-

all that is real

2007-05-30T07:54:00.000-07:00

"I know your true passion theory about two people destined to be together, but we can't all be filled with that much faith, trust and emotion. It just means if you have someone you're not alone. You're not going to find that in some fairy tale romance. Sometimes you have to sit through low times where you don't necessarily feel overwhelmingly, totally in love all the time." -The Myth of the Fingerprints-

so now the will

2007-05-25T01:47:00.000-07:00

I have been busy of late. With Plus and the retail part of work. In case you don't know, I work here. Family Business. So you are expected to do and know everything! Most of the past weeks/months has been about that, stockist to check-out boy, data-entry to pr work. Its nice to do a range of things but it can get tiring. I know I am gaining all this know-hows to run the show, to manage things. Learning new techniques, polishing up skills and all. Its good but it wears you out.

All this has me wondering though- about my place in this world. I always think of that. I think we are all put in this world for the very reason of making that difference. Small or big, its definitely up to us to decide. I want to make BIG differences.

Superman was once asked: "Does his mere presence on earth warp mankind's destiny?"

Of late, I asked myself something along that same line. It'll probably be something that I will not be able to settle today or tomorrow. Maybe at the end of the road. But it also has me thinking back, thinking over what I've accomplished and how. I know there is much to do. A lot more can be done. I need to will myself more towards bigger and better things but like all things, it begins with that one step. One at a time.

I want to will myself physically for a healthier lifestyle, will myself to work harder and smarter. Will to blog more here and there. Will to doing printshop better. Will to make Plus work. Will to spend more time with the people I love. Will to do more good. Will...

This is the beginning.

Muhammad Ali once said, "The will must be stronger than the skill."

I know I have and gaining more skills for life, so now the will.

Watch out world, I'm spreading my wings...

A Greek Odyssey

2007-05-22T11:28:00.000-07:00

Was sorta expecting a Day 3-Liverpool related image by artmaker here but he wasn't in the moment and settled for his notes, but i was prepared...told you I was planning only for tonight! =)

Original Liverbanner here. Spot the difference? =)

My very much over-quoted John Lennon quote:

"Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans".

For those of us who live constantly in danger of spending half our lives planning for the future (thus reducing the actual living by 50%) or for those who are thinking about planning for the future, this is rather prescient? I plan not to be one of those people, but I worry that I spend a lot of time planning that.

But I will do something different tonight. I will plan. In the wee hours of tomorrow morning, I plan to revisit old memories, emotions, recalling the anxiety, the sorrow then the ultimate bliss of Istanbul 2005. I am going to Athens tonight through the wonders of technology. I will seat for 90 minutes + + + in front of the set (wherever I will be watching), only stopping at half-time(s).

I will pray as I watched. I will not be praying for a victory though. I will be praying for tomorrow that whether we win or lose all red-hearted ones will unite for the finals of tomorrows.

(To quote the best Kop writer I know, Paul Tomkins - all his words!)

If we lose, we will be back and if we win we will also be back. (the win part is mine =))

Because in life it's always important to remember that what has been done once can be done again. Indeed, it's always important to prove to yourself just what is possible, through the act of actually doing it.

I feel that the ending to Tennyson's famous poem – about, and named after, Ulysses – captures where this current team resides: not yet back to the phenomenal strength and might of the Liverpool of the 1970s and '80s, but after a disappointing decade and a half, now able to forge forward once again, with character, with courage, as a dynasty is rebuilt:

"We are not now that strength which in old days

Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are;

One equal temper of heroic hearts,

Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will

To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield."

(It was a toss-up between this and the words of that other great English poet, Delia Smith: "let's be 'aving yer!") This is our night, for both team and supporters. To strive, to seek, to find, and – as Milan discovered two years ago – never to yield. -Paul Tomkins-

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart, and you'll never walk alone...

You'll never walk alone!

p/s Did you know that John Lennon was from Liverpool too? Now you do! =)

Something familiar

2007-05-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

I switched back to blogger for one main reason: ITS STILL FREE!
Maybe because I've still used blogger with the other account that makes the transition back so easy, so comfortable...as if i've never left but that's how it works, no? How we tend to surround ourselves with familiar things? Things that, as they say, make you feel like home?

Although I've always tried swimming against the tide then going with the flow, I realise now that sometimes its good to have all these familiar things in life...and so I have been inspired to blog more by him. While I try to move everything from the other to here, here's something familiar (at least to me) to get things started...

"There are not many roads in this journey, there's only one road, infinitely connected, like the many grooves of an old record, endlessly leading away from home and back towards home at the same time. It's all one long journey and travelling is what we do to stay alive. Like every road, it has its twists and turns; mine included. But with every twirl and bend and bumps, there's always this hope that things can only get better...what I face today is just a taste of things to come and with that in mind I can't wait for tomorrow but then again I can't forget about today...so its on about today then...It's late and its been hard trying to fall asleep with so much on your minds. Every thought that passes you reminds you of things undone and with every blink of an eye, the heart rattles away for that very person that you so deisre, forming a familiar face at the edge of a crowded mind; the brown eyes, those curvaceous lips, that well-known scent...it always lingers on, doesn't it? As the eyes shut and the mind drifts away to that one very mysterious place where all these seems to come true...our dreams..."

I think this has been recycled in most of the blogs I have had. Haha...=)